ZVK - Numb Lyrics

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Late night moons on the balcony
Sitting on the edge wit a straight face
ZVK the synonym for apathy
Don't wanna talk about it with my family
I put on a front
Don't worry bout me I'll chill on my ones
I might roll a blunt
And might hit it once
Say that ain't like me
Been like this for months
A chip on my shoulder
Man I can't wait till this Sunday is over
Maybe just maybe I shouldn't be sober
I know how people get lost in the waves
A matter of days, they drown it with spirits
I did the same, I drowned in the Spirit
Except mine was holy now I don't go near it
Bun what you told me cos He showed me different
I tried to feel it but He came up missing
Everyone told me that Jesus was close
But you can be close and always feel distant
Ache in my head and it beats like the drum
Hand me a pill and I might go numb
My conscience is saying to look in the mirror but
I'm way too shook to see what I've become
Yeah
Numb
I been Cruella De Vil,
Some say I ain't got no chill
Don't bother ask how I feel
I'm numb
Ironic it's painfully real
Ain't got no feelings to feel
Soon there'll be nothing to heal
Go dumb
I hope I come back to my senses
Its been time since I've picked up the pen
And lately I'm quiet and pensive
Sorry I forgot to mention
I ain't seeking your attention
That was never my intention
Numb
Grandma said "Stay true"
Grandma said "Be Real"
Means u gotta take risks
I'm not gonna lie if I weren't for her
Truss I wouldn't say this
This the game that I play
It's about what I choose
Ain't about what you think
I ain't got no passion in my heart no more
ZVK been really going dark for sure
Maybe that's the reason I procrastinate
Or maybe the reason's because I'm lacking faith
But I been in a whole 'nother dimension
Where there ain't no strings with no tension
Where I can build walls with no service
Cos missed calls got me messing up my friendships ahh
It's been three years since my old self died
But I'm numb so I'm thinking are these self told lies?
And I don't wanna break my grandma's heart
But this Christian life man it's oh so hard
Tychie told me my hearts gone hard
It's gonna get a lil harder
Uh, and everyday I smile a lil bit less
Blue skies here are only getting darker
I'm numb
Numb
I been cruella de vil
Some say I ain't got no chill
Don't bother ask how I feel
I'm numb
Ironic it's painfully real
Ain't got no feelings to feel
Soon there'll be nothing to heal
Go dumb
I hope I come back to my senses
Its been time since I've picked up the pen
And lately I'm quiet and pensive
Sorry I forgot to mention
I ain't seeking your attention
That was never my intention