ZSofficialmusic - SESSION I Lyrics

(It's nice to see you again...please, come this way)

(It will be the room on your right, just walk in and take a seat)

(Zayne?)
Uh, yeah?

(My name is Hope and I will be your therapist today)

(Tell me, how are you doing since last time we've spoke?)

If I'm being honest, not good

(What's been going on lately if I don't mind asking?)

You got yourself a notebook and pen?
(I do...just tell me when you're ready)
Everything happened so fast, where do I even begin?

(It's alright...go ahead and start slow)

Sometimes I wonder why I'm here
So I have visions and voices that walk in my head that scare me

I never knew that when I get older that I would get these feelings that would stay with me

Everyday I have to put on a happy smile so that everyone else around me can see that I'm okay

I never thought that being alone and by yourself...would turn out to be your best friend
I've been lonely during those cold nights
And I've been lonely during those warm days

I've felt cold while sitting alone in my room
And helpless cause this is the only place

Where I can go and lay all of my thoughts
On the ground but they always seem fake

What they said to me when someone asks (Are you okay?)
You didn't let me finish!

These days, I don't feel like me
And I don't feel the same
Cause I gotta live two names
But I still go on and pray
That ill get a miracle someday
Till eventually I feel great
But all I'm getting in return is a mirror reflecting my face saying my life is a stage
And that I'm never gonna change
Till the day where I'll remain
Six feet buried in my own grave!

I'm sick of the pain and I'm sick of the pills
All these drugs dont seem to cure myself
But all I've been paying is my health
To the point I'm always sick as hell
While my mind is mentally ill
But all I can do is count the days
One by one then put them on a shelf
After all
I've been doing that ever since I was my younger self!

((I'm looking for peace!))
((I wanna escape!))
((I can't live like this every day!))
((I wanna escape this pain!))
((Seems nobody else can relate!))
((They don't have a twisted brain!))
((Can anybody see me?!))
(Who are you wanting?)
((Can anybody feel me?!))
(What do you mean?)
((If you do then why don't you help me!))

I just need to be loved
I just need to feel wanted
I just need a hug
I just need to cry
I just wish you and I
Could finally get along with each other
To get peaceful nights


My life going bankrupt
But I gotta act tough
I go and tell myself that this is not enough!

I have to stay strong
When life gets rough
I have to live longer to see my younger son!

I wish you the best
Even if you're in stress
Don't feel like giving up, it's okay to be upset

Trust me I was a kid
Who wanted to off himself
But everytime I held that gun felt like a test





(((Pull the trigger!))) No!
(Why are you yelling?)
(((It'll be quicker!))) No!
(((Theres no room for your unstabled figure!)))

Their voices will stay in my head
That's their place
They the predator while I'm the prey!

(That's alot that you've been hiding...you should have told someone sooner)

They don't understand what you feel and what you think
Nobody needs to understand or else it becomes their problem

I try to show my expressions clearly to people
But all they get is what they see cause they don't think
About the mask I'm wearing to help keep
My negativity away
I'm only a man of secrets so goodluck finding my key

To my heart...this life has only left me with a scar
That even if I stitch em up, they all come apart

Everytime I go and help is when I fear I'll start a fire
Everytime I wanna be heard I'm afraid I'll be seen as a liar

I strive to always be my best as well for others
But in the end it always feels like I'm the storyteller

Locking out everyone who tries to help
While I'm sitting in that cellar
Room within my mind
Tryna to get better

So thank you for todays therapy session but I got places to be

(Zayne wait, come back you're not okay!)

Quit saying that I'm not okay! I'm going and gone see
Me walking with my hoodie over my head on the streets
With my headphones at max volume...


I'm just a kid who will stay alone
But I will continue to grow
And once the years go by, I'll still say
I'm just me