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Boy cries wolf scenario
Let's just say I f*cked up in the past
But that was before I went through hell and back
I've said a lot I shouldn't have
But haven't we all done that at some point
If I could fix it all I would but we don't have a choice
And I want to improve and better myself
But I feel so open-ended because no one I ask knows how to help
My silent screams cower behind yellow teeth
That open wide to say I'm fine but that's with attached strings
I hold my breath until I start to choke
I let my clients walk all over me
I'd call them friends but they're just there when it's something they need
And I guess that makes me a hypocrite
I kept the ones who hurt me just so I could do the same shit
Kept em' cause they know I'm shitty and they'll never judge it
And I tried to improve and better myself
But what's the f*cking point I'm not seeing changes in anyone else
I put on this mask just to kiss your ass
I want the personality that i had back.