Zoe Twist - For Myself, I'm Trying Lyrics

I'm still coming home crying
Smile through the teeth I would lie in
Thought I was doing better
I'm trying I'm trying
Spiral again I'll just deny it
This cycle ain't satisfying
Thought I was doing better
I'm trying I'm trying
Sitting on the bathroom floor
Feels like I've been here for hours
Everything is water running through my hands
Nothings blooming from artificial flowers
You say you say
Keep your chin up you will be fine
You should take your own advice
I'm just tryna ease my mind
I'm just tryna buy time
I'm just tryna do what's rights
I'm just tryna ease my mind
I'm still coming home crying
Smile through the teeth I would lie in
Thought I was doing better
I'm trying I'm trying
Spiral again I'll just deny it
This cycle ain't satisfying
Thought I was doing better
I'm trying I'm trying
Are you disappointed
Or am I reading into it
The look that you are giving me
It sure ain't helping
It's hard for me to remember
Yeah I don't remember much
And trying to gets expensive
Yet I'm still bleeding the same blood
Climb my way out of the deep end
I've got pretty good at swimming
I'm gasping when I jump in
Am i drowning
Here it comes again
Yeah here it comes again
Here it comes again
You say you say
Keep your chin you you will be fine
You should take your own advice
I'm just tryna ease my mind
I'm just tryna buy time
I'm just tryna do what's rights
I'm just tryna ease my mind
I'm still coming home crying
Smile through the teeth I would lie in
Thought I was doing better
I'm trying I'm trying
Spiral again I'll just deny it
This cycle ain't satisfying
Thought I was doing better
I'm trying I'm trying