Zima Kamimoto - Doing better than you Lyrics

I'll try to make this short
I'm not willing to give you much of my time
When you couldn't afford to give me one more second of yours

Once upon a time, we were girls in an awful world
And for the longest time, you were what I loved the most
My partner-in-crime, my sister, my ally
There wasn't a me if there wasn't you
Do you ever miss our hair tangled in the same wind?

Never in a million years would I have thought, hmm
That forever was something you couldn't hold

We pledged loyalty in half-whispered promises
Ten years of being the safe harbor where I could hide my fears
And I held yours as close
Every holiday, I counted the days to see you
We were the envy of the entire world
But life was always kinder to you, wasn't it?
Constantly doing better than me
You floated when I fell, my midnight ache too vast
Spilling like ink
Always too heavy a burden to you
So tell me, what was the root of your betrayal?
Was it the weight of my demons or a lack of true love?
Was I just an inconvenience?
Because I would have faced all your demons with you

I wish you could have written me a note
I know what it would have said
"I'm sorry, but you know I'm doing better than you, I'm too good for this"
Would have been better than slipping away in silence
Like the Sun setting without a final glance
An explanation you still owe me after so many years of us
But even if I had the opportunity to read it today
I've realized, funnily enough, that I'm better off without you
Because I'd never wish your brand of friendship on anyone
And it feels so good to know that you don't know me anymore
Just like I never knew you at all
I'm doing better than you could have ever imagined

Never in a million years would I have thought, hmm
That forever was something you couldn't hold