Ziillep! - Lovely Drugs(First Week Sober) Lyrics

I used to love watching the clouds in the sky
Now I'm nostalgic of when I was high
When I was young, I used to be pure
Now I feel numb as if there is no cure
Man, I loved drinking, I did my share of dope
Now I'm wondering if there is still hope
So save me or kill me, I couldn't care less
'Cause I don't even know how I got in this mess
I've got my own back up against the wall
There's no one else to blame, I made myself fall
It used to be a heaven, but now I'm in hell
How can I move on from the years I fell?
This is
I used to be a dreamer, now I don't give a f*ck
I feel like a loser, that's out of luck
I feel like a loner, a freak and a punk
I feel like a poser
But I still miss the junk
I've got my own back up against the wall
There's no one else to blame, I made myself fall
It used to be a heaven, but now I'm it's a hell
How can I move on from the years I fell?
Now it just feels like I'm losing my mind
Like I just can't seem to leave the past behind
Running is easy, fighting is hard
But I'll fight the reaper, till the day I die
This is war