Zeynep Kızmaz - you failed me. Lyrics

I had a dream, I was gonna be
The next Marie Curie
But that was before I entered the conservatory

Didn't like playing the pieces they assigned
I would play the melodies that went through my mind
My exams came, I was forced to make a choice
Academy made me lose my voice

You failed me, you failed me
I can't look at you every day
You failed me, I can't believe
You never see it on my face

Confusingly, it's always me
Why can't I be the grateful one?
But for once, can you look at your
Self and question "What have I done?
What have I done? What have I done?"

I came to you in my first year of med school
Told you I can't do it anymore
But you said "It's just a phase, you're indecisive anyway
You change your mind every day"

I just hid my deepest thought
But decided to do it even more
And you may have no idea
But now I live to prove you wrong

I buried me, I buried me
I avoid you in my own home
I buried me, I can't believe
You never saw this coming along

Unsurprisingly, it's always me
My emotions lead me away from you
But for once, can you look at your
Self and question "What did I do?"

I'm entitled to be a slave
As long as I live as you want
You see every day what I wanna do

But you try to mask it, live so blind
Never asking what I have in mind
So all the words coming out will be lies to you

You failed me, I buried me
Can't look at me in the mirror
Oh now, I just can't believe
I always listened to my fears

Unavoidably, it's always me
I gave up, it didn't have to be
But for once can you look at your
Self and question "What's in this song?
What did I do wrong? Why can't I understand her anymore?"

I look at myself and question "Why did I choose all this?
Why wasn't I brave enough to chase my dreams?"

Try to hide all that I feel
Even my songs are not unfiltered
I no more care who understands
They are really all that I have left