Zeynep Kızmaz - a cup of sadness Lyrics

How do you call it love?
It's only been a month
You don't know me
I don't know you
You don't know yourself...

How do I call it love?
When I've never been in before
Walks by the sea
Talks just to see
If it's worth it all

You carried my bag (You carried my bag)
While I carried you (While I carried you)
You cared for me, but I took care of you

You nodded, while (You nodded while)
I listened twice (I listened twice)
Understood but not quite

I try to be my best all my life
Aspirations, breaking cycles are my drive
While all you do is breathe all day long
It's a privilege you don't see, you should know (know)

Uuuuuu
Uuuuuuu
Uuuuuuuuuuuuuu

You had your exes
But you were my first one
How did you break up? Said you drifted apart
How does that happen? (How does that happen?)

Didn't wanna end up the same
I tried to talk it all out
Still we ended up breaking apart
Whose heart shattered?

It was my fault (It was my fault)
The signs I ignored (The signs ignored)
It was all clear, you a people-pleaser

Everywhere I went (Everywhere I went)
You followed my back (You followed my back)
We were on the wrong side of tracks (tracks)

Wanna kiss, hug, and hold you all the time
I still miss you every day and our lie
I know it's not you, it's the memories
When I look back there's doubts and tears only

I'm mad that I can't hate you (Mad that I can't hate you)
I hate that I still love you (I still love you)
A cup of sadness filled with roses that dried (that dried)

I'm mad that you still love me (Mad that you still love me)
I love that you can't hate me (You can't hate me)
But not enough for you to even try? (Try, try, try...)

4 days past our breakup I wrote to you (I wrote to you)
And yet I was the one who reached out, I was a fool (I was a fool)
You didn't wanna go a second time and fail again (Fail again)
I was left with no burden but too much pain (Too much pain)

That premature "I love you" that you said (I love you...)
I know you never meant it, I'm not sure if you can (You can't...)
It was on repeat like it would make it true (It was never true)
It still meant more to me than to you (you)
But maybe, I don't know, you're hurting, too (Are you hurting too?)
That makes me hate myself
No, not you (No, not you)
No not you (No not you)
No, not you