Zero-B1 - refuge Lyrics

Where can I retreat when doubt keeps seepin in
I can't swim out the deeper end
I'm leagues from town I'm free within
No rays of sun to feed my skin, the wind just cuts and bleeds me thin
I'm tryna find my rhythm but this system pulls my strings again
Just tap dance for that dream again
Nobody's watchin, sign that dotted line and you'll be freer than
Your granny ever was, no one to change your name
Or set ablaze your crib or cross or bodies of your kin strung to a tree again
Just think again

I can't spark no revolution, I can't even free myself
I feel like pavlov found his dog and he just keep ringin his bell
I saw the writing on the wall and checked the spelling from my cell
Who knew we'd learn to love these chains and build panopticons ourselves
I ask for strength in my convictions
My steps in line with wisdom
No weapons formed against this, no more genocides this christmas
Ditch the mindset that for me to win I gotta see you victimized
No rhyme or reason to this shit just ignorance conditioned by
Supremacist mentalities that grip onto our fears and weakness
Who am I to say that I'm deserving of what I've been given
Borrowed time I'm livin on
A borrowed mind I'm spittin from
The border lines we draw are just a fiction of our sickened thoughts
Jesus was a refugee, my savior was a martyr
Lynched just like a nigga, born in destitute and squalor
I can't help but feel I'm just another cog keepin the pulverizer
Of empire chuggin through our hope and best desires
F*ck I'm tired nigga

Can't move with cower in my step
Too many reps of broken cycles with a setback at the end
They say that history a circle, but it feel more like a spring
It's so much effort in our stretchin, just to rebound out of reach
Far as the east is from the west
I second guess if recognition serves my interest or my ego best
Regret gon chase me either way I spin it so I'm thinkin less
Cause stressin never got me anywhere except for sleepin less
And I can't chase my dreams if I can't see em streamin through my head
Or check with em
Just know I get possession I'll be stretchin niggas
Tested through the fire so my iron never letting up
Say the word and imma get to steppin like a nephilim
And tread the narrow path hope I outlast the peril pressin up

But where can I retreat
I know you hear me pleadin to you
Don't leave me out to bleed
I don't wanna turn the leaves bloody
They playin with my strings right now
Limbs keep movin out sync
But I'll be fine if you could lead me out
Put a lamp under my feet