wouldn't be pretty Video (MV)

Did it even matter when you left me out here shattered and feeling like I'm not worthy of love
Did you even care when you just left me by the stairs and drove away for the last time
We never spoke again
I wonder what would happen if instead of f*cking silence I would say what I meant
Before it's too late to mean it
I wonder if the burden that you're carrying is heavier than keeping us a secret
All I do is think about the what ifs
Like, what if you knew that
I broke down right outside your house last week
I hope you didn't see me
The sight wouldn't be pretty
I saw you in university taking that test that you were helping me with
Why did you look so happy
I wrote a bunch of songs and correct me if I'm wrong, but you never saw me as a choice
But I know what we want, what is good must all come down, but the impact was far worse
And I expected this, such a careless optimist, so naive to think that I could be
Someone you would see and have second thoughts to leave, but you did it all too easily
All I do is think about the what ifs
What if you didn't leave?
I broke down right outside your house last week
I hope you didn't see me
The sight wouldn't be pretty
I saw you in university taking that test that you were helping me with
Why did you look so..