Zeke de Paz - Part of My Life Lyrics

Listen here I'm writing these words
I wanna
Tell you a story bout the places that I've come from
Check it out fare warning tho it's kinda depressing
But in order to understand me you gotta just listen

I come from a place where no understands who I am
Everyone thinks I overreact but I ran from hell
Couch hopping
Living in a car for a while
Smoking weed every single day
Just to keep me calmed down

Remember crying out my eyes cuz my momma pulled me to side
During church just to tell it was my
Fault
That she had cuts on her thighs
Holes in her calves
And bloodshot red eyes
Slits on her wrists
Hatred inside
Yeah no surprise

That was grade 6
Smoking weed 7th grade
Popping pills during 8th
Drinking lean freshmen year
Had to go to court then came therapy
Lied through all of it
Therapist talked to my parents
Said I was a perfect kid

But I'm not
I'm struggling with depression
Anxiety's always messing
With my mental
Always stressing
My girl helped me a lot
But I'm f*cking pessimistic
Music's always kept me calm
Helps me with problem addressing

It is true I need help
But who's gon' help me
The only person I can trust
Is my girl she tells me
Everything will be okay
But what happens if she leaves
This a journey through my mind
Shit man I just need to breathe

I need a breather
But I don't wanna waste
Any of my time I just wanna explain
The reason why
I feel so down all the time
Most of it I'm smiling fake
Inside my soul I'm crying
And there was a time
That I was at my lowest
Thought I heard my bro got shot
I was numb I couldn't focus
And I felt so wicked
Cuz I didn't feel nothing at all
I didn't cry
I was too broken to be soft

That was a part of my life
Just needed to get it off my chest
It felt like a knife in my lungs
And now I'm breathing okay
Still got a lot in my head
Maybe the next song
I'll be able to say the rest of it
Yeah