I was watching your giant hands
Baiting hooks and tying knots
And opening cans
Of your favorite every night
Until the overheads took on
A yellower light
Once hydrated and amplified
None of us were bright enough
And so you would hide
On the back porch and fall asleep
Counting unnamed stars above
How couldn't you weep
So by distortion or a cadet glow
Either way that memory kept
A sickening hold
As the seasons scurried by
And i got familiar with the weight
Of similar skies
But i never loved those high numbers
Not enough to push me under
Not enough to never look away
Oh no
And i'm sorry you flickered out
But i named one of those poor stars
You worried about
And he's gorgeous as evergreens
And as sure as i was watching you
He's looking at me
So i'm nervous naturally
But that's just something in my blood
I'm looking to clean