Zah God - Mary J. Lyrics

I locked my heart in a box
I guard my feelings no lie
I try again and try
Lost my best friend and my mind
That's what these bandages hide
That's where my feelings reside
You was all I need to get by
And now I needs to get high
I'll admit it, was addicted
Was a fein to to ya
You went missin with my feels
I went searchin for redemption
Sipped codine for my symptoms
Use to lean on you
Shit, we done got too distant
And these drugs a never fix it

You was my Mary J, Mary J
The best high (The best high)
Swear the to god I lost my damn mind
You was my Mary J, Mary J
The best high (Best high)
You always seem to cross my mind

I throw myself at all these women
Use these drugs to numb my feelings
Learned my lesson won't forget iT
Loss a blessing Out here trippin
Now I'm cautious wit feelings
Paid the cost and grew more wit it
Let the high replace the feelin
But the high ain't who I'm missing
I was battling addiction
Before I was dabbling and mixing
Won the fight with codependence
Lost the fight with coexistence
And the love that you was givin
I been searchin for a minute
Don't know how else I'm go get it
So I'm high cus I don't feel it

You was my Mary J, Mary J
The best high (The best high)
Swear the to god I lost my damn mind
You was my Mary J, Mary J
The best high (Best high)
You always seem to cross my mind