I just liked a baby photo from about a year ago
My bad girl, you know I stalk you so?
Before I slide to the DMs
Can we get to a little talking
Why do You fake all the pics You post on Your feed?
Just so the boys will say damn when they see
Why don't You show em all the shit they say
Makes You wanna make Your precious wrists bleed
Girl, You've wanted to leave earth since You were fifteen
And that's the shit that gets me
That's the shit that wrecks me
That's the shit that twists my mind
And is so God damn perplexing
Girl You're so gorgeous I want You to know this
Any boy that dips it's cuz he can't afford it
As I do this shit, it gets more and more painful
I think I'm seeing dinosaurs and I may need an angel
Stay out of dresser drawers under my table
This a f*cking drug store, double check the label
I don't know what I'm taking, my hands are shaking
My body's aching, all the windows are breaking
I can't be faking and maybe I should scream
Then I sit up, and wake up, it's a xanned out dream
(Yeah life's a xanned out dream)
I believe in God
But I hate the church
Cuz they claim they bout love
But they really spreading hurt
I mean shoutout Pastor Harold
That man, he does it best
But the others in the business
Bring the pain straight out your chest
I mean, enforcement to beliefs
Father God, I'm on my knees
Grow roots inside my soul
And build peace inside of me
I mean other than You girl
And outside of all the drugs
You left me with three options
Either love, sex, or drugs
Was all pure for a minute
Then this girl, she let me finish
Broke my heart, oh no You didn't
Say I can't rap, just cuz my pigment
I mean I feel a little guilty
With the way I make You feel
But we made a bet girl
You broke Your end on the deal
All I ever wanted
Was just for You to be honest
But You f*cked around and hoed
And I'm not talking about last August
Yeah every time I think about them
Wanna cut my wrists
You got me choked up at the mic
And now I've got a lisp
Yo, my issue was I was too f*cked up to write bars
Hell, my ass thought I woke up on a hotel in Mars
I was flying my spaceship, I was hoping by the stars
Then I woke up, with my nuts in two jars
I was looking deep for Your depth, but I knew that shit was lacking
I tried to reach Your heart, but it hit me heart attacking
I gotta stand back cuz I know You don't want me
You wanna hang with friends and I guess that's just not me
You said You didn't care girl, You never tried to stop me
But now we aren't together, You're mad and You blocked me
I guess I was right, just keep it all in and there won't be a fight
If I tell You shit in privacy, then please do not lie to me
Step back, draw back with a knife, watch, I'll die for free
Man, I tell You shit, because I trust You and You had to ruin that
Guess I'll have to adjust to being on my own with no friends
I guess the rule has always been when I'm under the illusion
That You'd help my body cleanse, see life with a lenses
They wanted something different so I'm putting out my cigarette
They think I'm speaking gibberish like a hobo in your figure sweats
Oh f*ck, I'm popping off another one, the party'll be hella fun
Wake up in the morning stunned, how the f*ck I get this gun
(Yeah how the f*ck I get this gun)
So this is where I say goodbye
Can't sleep at night, too numb to cry
You won't pick up, You mad at me
Or maybe, You just fell asleep
I thought You was all mine for keeps
We started fighting, cry to sleep
I dread our fights they're all my fault
Two blades were at my wrist You called
Yeah You called, and You might've saved my life
I wish baby that You could see
The truth I say and honesty
How beautiful You are
And girl how much You mean to me
You always like I wanna cut
Then You call Yourself a slut
Four months straight You got no peace
Don't act like it's because of me
It's all my fault, I know I'm wrong
But cuz of You, I write this song
I do this baby just for You
Just wanna hear I love You too (I love You too)
These girls be like I love You too
Then go and f*ck another dude
Now guess I've gotta watch for girls
Damn shawty now I'm not Your world
You said I was I'm not enough
You know I see it when we love
You thinking about other guys
Middle of making out I cried
Too many hoes in my past time
Too many, broken hearts in my past life
I've been dreaming of new beginnings
But wondering when it ends
You're the piece that's been missing
I can never call you friend, God damn
How many empty bottles does it take
For me to realize, that You don't ever wanna see my face
F*ck our history, I just wanna be with You
No matter what path I take, shit it all leads me back to me You
F*ck, my heart true
But right now, I'm stuck in thought
Hung up on all nightmares, and worried about the thots
Like what they think of me
Messing with my history, yeah my history
Swear to God, I should've been part of Your family tree
Your dad was gon' respect me and Your momma would've loved me
But now it's f*ck me, now it's f*ck me (forget me)
F*ck a boyfriend, girl I swear I would've been your husband
We were supposed to turn out different, I'm everything that he wasn't shit
F*ck depressed, I need You girl can't You see
Cuz it hurts so much, that right now I start to bleed, from the suffering
Stuck in thought, straight wondering
Are you in his bed again
Hoping for that "i miss you" text, f*ck
Let me not get ahead of myself man
Mutual love I guess that was never the plan
But I tried
Tears rushing down Your face, I ain't mean to make You cry
But now you know how I feel When You said
When You said (shit)
When You said bye
When You said
When You said bye
When You
When You
When You said bye
When You
When You
When You said bye
When You said
When You said
When You
When You
Yeah