YWB Philly - Happy Death Day (feat. Rija Ratsimihah) Lyrics

Yo I gotta keep this quiet guys
She's sleeping right now
Sleeping beauty I swear to God (Ohhhhh)
I love her so much (Yeah)
What if everything we know is wrong
What if I shouldn't be here singing this song
What if you lied and you knew it all along
What if it hurt you too or were you just leading me on
I ain't never ever smoked, but I got so low, was close
Remember, Wednesday the 18th, when I almost slit my throat
I remember all that pain, shit, I still feel it today
I mean to be honest girl, I'll take it to the grave
I get it, I'm a drama queen, I know there's a lot wrong with me
But if you were bipolar too, then maybe you would see
Just how much that I broke, my heart shattered before you spoke
Cuz I knew girl, what was coming, f*ck a note
We can't do this anymore, wanted to drop dead on the floor
You were the one thing that I had, now there's no more love galore
I didn't want to be a rapper, all I wanted was to have you
But you were 600 miles away, and I couldn't have come through
Or maybe I could've, I dream about it every night
I think about the pain and hurt and all I feel is spite
I think about our first kiss, and then I think about our last
Sometimes think it was meant to be, and then my mind will flash
To when I said I love you, you couldn't say I love you too
Told you exactly what it was, you didn't think it was me and you
I get it girl, I'll never be quite good enough
All I ever wanted, was just fulfillment and love
Friday the 13th, call it happy death day
Sorry for being such an asshole, I guess I'm just not doing okay
I hope you're doing fine, and you're making your way through
When I sleep every night, can't stop this f*cking deja vu
What if everything we know is wrong
What if I shouldn't be here singing this song
What if you lied and you knew all along
What if it hurt you too, or were you just leading me on
Phew
If you hear this (Oh)
Oh that hurt a lot
Not gonna cry, won't do it
I'll make it up to you, I'm sorry
Look see I, don't really understand myself sometimes
I can say that I'm over you, but then I start to cry
Because I know that you're better off, with another guy
And our breakup was my fault and I did know why
But still, I asked questions, blamed you for what happened
Texted you paragraphs, but you couldn't give back a sentence
I'll be real, I don't really own shit, I ain't never whipped no foreign
I ain't never did this, I'm just another motherf*cker exploring
I'm all in, to be honest what if things actually worked out?
What if, when I wanted, I could take you out
And show you what the kid's about
What if we could make out in the back seat of my car, see
What if, when you asked I could give you all my heart
What if, yeah all these questions they're starting to haunt my brain
I'm starting to go crazy, I'm starting to go insane
Wanna go back to the times it's true, wanna be real with you
Keep it all in, that's just for you, I wanna get at a table for two
What if everything we know is wrong
What if I shouldn't be here singing this song
What if, what if, what if
Too many what ifs in my life, in my life, in my life, in my life
In my life