YungDev - As I Reflect Lyrics

I got here makin' peace with all my demons
Look, sittin' here at 28, pen and pad to create
I been feelin' all the hate, all gas, no brakes
How you real the ass fake, never been in last place

They can keep them handshakes, insecure ass snakes
Eddie V it's lamb Steaks, we can do this for lunch
Stayed quiet through my storms, I been losin' for months
Had to leave him where I met him, they was doin' too much

Claimin' smoke shit, that's gon' get you on the blunt
Hard shots to be the boss, go ahead, do what you want
Put my life on black, go ahead, shoot if you want
Bino trips every day, I would do it for fun

Hard times make a man, that shit stupid to run
Fact, raise a man, stand firm, and never fold
Ask God, what's my purpose, cause I'm gettin' old
And he said, you livin' in it, you just didn't know

That's why I blessed you with resilience and switchin' your flows
Niggas know how Dev comin', shit, it's gettin' cold
And y'all know I get different when I'm in that mode
Never go against the grain, gotta keep it whole

They'll do anything for fame, that life's about second chances
If you get it, make it work, scars hittin
I'm just wishin' they would listen when it hurt
Ain't denyin' what was said and how you feelin' it was worse

To see my granny in that hearse instead of standin' in that church
Mom can't accept change, it's kinda strange to wanna hurt
Separation in my chest, the mental notes breathe first
Try to stay where you ain't want it, so you try and leave first

Make me feel that's what I wanted, what I want was teamwork
Shit, they only eat for they self, now it's how I teamwork
I'ma get back what I lost, so let's get this cream first
They be too quick to respond, f*ck that shit, read first

New approach on how I think and move, this my rebirth
I been feelin' more confident, I don't want they compliments
Prayin' for this moment that I'm in, and I acknowledge it
Pros only prominent, cons get a consequence

Nice skin, she modelin', got a lot bottled in
You ever see a dog turn cold in your face
I see rats backdoor, they whole team for the pape
Isolation's so good, I been needin' my space

Done movin' with fakes, nah, we don't even relate
Shit, never been complacent, manifest patience
Caught by the opposite, they Facebook traced him
Rival in my hood, it's the C's versus the Lakers

Heat versus the Pacers, Freddie versus Jason
Gave everything that I had, wasn't good enough
Gave way more than I had and ain't givin' f*ck
Now I'm givin' less than a dab, I got him lookin' up

Always executin' as a dad, ain't no givin' up
See a dog down, better pick him up
Wanna see him all smile, God, I been a lost child
Play with my potential, time I put them cards down

Person they would call, I ain't gettin' calls now
Damn, right? Problems come with this life, shit
I always thought I ain't had no fears
Till I realized outside of God, my biggest fear was myself

That's how I feel
Had to get that shit off
It's me
YungDev