The Doctor Video (MV)

The doctor and the nurses think I'm evil, ill and sick (f*cked)
They say that I'm unstable, they say that I twitch and tick (yeah)
They say "don't let him fool you, he's real good at lies and tricks" (mm)
They say that in the wall of life I'm just a broken brick (I am)
The doctor and the nurses think I'm just a piece of dirt
They don't know about the voices, they don't know about the hurt (no)
They don't know about the ways that me and death come close and flirt
They won't know the shit I been through 'till I'm dead and on a shirt

My mind is taking over and I'm never getting sleep (up all night)
I'm feeling like a psychopath, I'm always on the creep (rah)
I like to slit my wrists and watch the blood begin to seep (shing)
I see the f*cking bone, oh no I think I went too deep (oh no)
Now I'm in the ambulance, they're saying stay awake (stay awake)
Every time I close my eyes I'm seeing Heaven's gates (mm)
I don't know if it's real or not, it must be f*cking fake (must be)
Cause I am just a sinner, a life in Hell is my fate (yeah)
I blacked out for a minute and I woke up in a room
The nurse said "oh you're up, the doc will see you very soon" (very soon)
I glanced upon my arm and saw the dressing on the wound (the bandage)
I'm feeling f*cking anxious, an impending sense of doom (f*cked)
The doc walked through the door bearing a sick and twisted smile
He said "how are you feeling? you've been resting for a while"
I told him not so good, my arm still aches, I'm feeling vile (ugh)
He came a little closer as he opened up my file (yeah)

The doctor and the nurses think I'm evil, ill and sick (sick)
They say that I'm unstable, they say that I twitch and tick (yeah)
They say "don't let him fool you, he's real good at lies and tricks" (mm)
They say that in the wall of life I'm just a broken brick (mm)
The doctor and the nurses think I'm just a piece of dirt
They don't know about the voices, they don't know about the hurt
They don't know about the ways that me and death come close and flirt
They won't know the shit I been through 'till I'm dead and on a shirt

The doc looked in my eyes and asked "so you have BPD?" (borderline)
I told him yes I do as he began to smirk at me (a sick smile)
His smile quickly faded, he said "interesting, I see"
His gaze refused to wander as he took a sip of tea (slurrp)
Now I felt uncomfortable, my mind began to race (to race)
I looked up at the doctor and saw anger in his face (grr)
Suddenly my worry left and terror took its place (oh my god)
As I saw that clutched inside his hand he held a silver blade (shing)
I tried to jump up quickly, but he beat me to the punch (bow)
The blade entered my stomach and I vomited my lunch (urragh)
I headbutted the doctor as I heard his nose bone crunch (krrrr)
I bit into his ear and I began to chew and munch (nom nom nom nom)
He sliced me in my throat and then I fell down to the floor (I dropped)
I tried to keep the wound closed but the blood trickled and poured (it leaked)
And at that very moment when I couldn't take much more (done out 'ere)
The nurse which I saw earlier came strolling through the door (creak)

The doctor and the nurses think I'm evil, ill and sick (I'm sick)
They say that I'm unstable, they say that I twitch and tick (I do)
They say "don't let him fool you, he's real good at lies and tricks" (mm)
They say that in the wall of life I'm just a broken brick (I am)
The doctor and the nurses think I'm just a piece of dirt
They don't know about the voices, they don't know about the hurt (they don't)
They don't know about the ways that me and death come close and flirt
They won't know the shit I been through 'till I'm dead and on a shirt

The nurse froze on the spot when she saw all the stains of red (blood)
The doctor grabbed her ponytail and then cut off her head (shing)
I screamed in shock and horror as I backed into the bed (oh my God!)
The doctor turned to face me, looked into my eyes and said: (he said)
"You people with the problems in your head are f*cking scum (lowlife)
Imma torture you and kill you and lie to your mama
If she ask about your state, I'm gonna say the opp is done (operation)
Tell me, do you think she'll miss her drug addicted son?" (nah)
And in that time the doctor raised his blade into the air (shing)
He laughed an evil laugh, (hahahahah) I felt his dark and hostile stare (evil)
He kicked me in the stomach and he grabbed me by my hair (ow)
He scalped me very slowly, I felt all my flesh just tear (arghhh)
And in that final moment I was struck by grief and woe (crying)
I don't really wanna die, just want the pain to go (the pain)
But now it's all just over and I'll never get to grow
Into the man I wished to be and now I'll
Die real f*cking slow
(F*ck)