Y.U.N.G Ivy - this place i know Lyrics

So low
Talk me down from this place I know
Feel like time's been moving so slow
Envision dying in my bedroom

I couldn't stand being in this room much longer
When the memories came back even though I didn't want them
Taking my hand, telling me this will all be over
Just wish I could go back and be more of what you wanted

Now I've been staying up biting my tongue
Choking on the words I wish I'd said when I was young
'Cus I've been staying home and getting drunk
Just to help forget the things I wish I hadn't said and done

And after all this time I still don't know what you want from me
Like you and I weren't meant to be
And after all my lies you're still acting like it's fine
But I know that deep inside you

Just want to help me kick these habits
It's for the best but I can't help it
And it's getting harder for me to tell if
You're on my side or controlling the damage