Yugen - STAY Lyrics

Here I stay
This year has eaten me alive
And I think I've lost all the strength to fight
I thought my thoughts would finally revive
But apparently I'm f*cking dead inside
I keep having these memories
Keep pacing
That just won't f*cking leave
Time wasting
Memories of you
Memories of me
Never making it to 2023
I wrote Haunt while we were together
And I thought that would be the end
But here I am hopeless
Shouldering neurosis
Goddammit here we go again
I never thought I'd place my bets on red
50/50 isn't easy
But here I am stuck playing this rigged roulette
Put a gun to my f*cking head
Release me
Please
Release me
But I know you won't because you live rent free
Should I live?
Should I die?
I'm just f*cking tired of being alive
Exhausted and contrived
I'm sick of being alive
Grip tight
I never thought I'd place my bets on red
50/50 isn't easy
But here I am stuck playing this rigged roulette
Rotting here within this mystery
I'm not alone
Not alone
I'm not alone
Not alone
We're all here waiting to die
I've found my tomb
My tomb
I've found my tomb
My tomb
Here I wait to come alive
Here I wait to come alive
Exhausted and contrived
Grip tight to life
Grip tight to life
I never thought I would be here
So many years wasted in disrepair
We had talked about having children
But now I'm glad we saved them from our despair
These words are ringing hopeful
But that's only because we didn't last
I still dread the day you come home
But that's because I'm still in the past
Here I stay
Here I stay
Within this mystery
Here I stay
Here I stay