YOGII BLAIIR - Confessions Lyrics

I got a devil on my shoulder
I grow colder n colder
I told her
I just wanna love her
Man I don't wanna own her
Baby come closer
I just need some closure
I don't wanna lose another soldier
I smoke a Lil more cause I feel to sober
Struggling to keep my composure
I became a stoner
Anything to lower
All of this pain
Spending most nights
Stuck inside my brain
That's why I write
So I don't go insane
It don't look bright
When your standing in the rain
You can't see the light
When you've been stuck in the dark
A lighter sparks
You gotta watch your mouth
Cause you could leave with a mark
Don't doubt that it can all go south
I've been f*cked from the start
I got no heart
Ptsd cause I can't deal with my past
Yeah I was making money fast
But how long did it last
I ain't worried bout a camera
Cause I kept on a mask

You ever start with a ball
And flip to an O
Yeah that money looked tall
But we're the f*ck did it go
Ain't no one to call
When that money gets low
How far you fall
Depends on how far it goes

It's oh so evident
Talking shit
But you ain't got no evidence
Stories and myths
You don't really know bout these skeletons
I'm keeping in my closet
These nightmares keeping me awake
I've made more than a couple mistakes
Making more than double your wage
Gotta watch your step in a jungle of snakes
Dont juggle with fate
Cause a struggle awaits

Murdered this beat but I'm a kill it again
We all gotta eat so I'll take it from them
Put down my blade n I pick up my pen
Stuck in a trade that's gonna kill me in end
Been stuck in a rage since the age of ten
Stuck with my pain I don't need no friends
Turning the page I ain't following trends
Cops want me in a cage so f*ck the feds
I feel so strange now I'm off my meds
I'm so sick of change is it all in my head ?
I feel so drained as my blood drips red
I ain't no saint more like a demon instead
I want some fame but I need this bred
We ain't the same so you ain't a threat
I aim at the whole game and take one breath
All you see drop is one beed of sweat
You think I'm a stop hi have we met
Most my mates are
Dead, stuck in debt, f*cked from meth or Wishing for there death
So I can't wait
I wanna be great
But at this rate
I'm slowly loosing faith
As my metal state
Starts to disintegrate
I can't see straight
Constantly f*cked from my feet to my face
Honestly luck is the only thing that's kept me alive
I don't really know how I survived
F*ck this god damn life of crime
Only way out is when I rhyme
Thoughts weigh heavy on my mind
I'm running out of time
I'm running to limelight
You can't stop me in this knife fight
I promise
I ain't no f*cking white Knight
I'm conscious
That I might die tonight
I should be alright
I should be okay
Chuck another ciggie in the ashtray
I'm sick of living life this way
That way