Days ain't been sunny
I've been tryna shine but the rain keep coming
I don't wanna face it but I can't keep running
I've been laughing when the shit ain't been funny
But I can't ever let nobody else know
No I can't ever let nobody get close
Because when you need everybody else most
They like to turn to a motherf*cking ghost, gone
Put a smile on your face, nah
They like how was your day, long
Isn't life great, wrong
We ain't singing the same song
I've been fantasizing 'bout a life without it ending
Man i've been pretending
That I didn't wish my life had happened different
I've been acting like my whole life was splendid
But it really hasn't I guess its a habit
I guess i'm attracted to a whole lot of bad shit
Man that karma chick's a bad bitch
Too bad that bitch is just a catfish
Thinking a lot
I've been going through something
I feel sick to my stomach
So I drink just to numb it
Thinking a lot
I've been going through something
I feel sick to my stomach
So I drink just to numb it
I hope I see better days
I hope to control the pain
Man i'm going through everything
Got me struggling everyday
I hopelessly set a gaze
About to blow like some damn grenades
Smoke my dope and I set a blaze
Got my pupils low hella glazed
I hope that it goes away
I can't smile there's too much pain
I need some of that novacaine
So I go to that better place
This pain is pleasure and power
I cry and shower for hours
It's like i'm being devoured
I constantly feel surrounded
I choking its like i'm drowning
My mind is constantly shouting
These strangers keep trying to help me
When they know nothing about me
They say I should talk about it
They say they feel me I doubt it
I'm by myself all alone
I go through this on my own
Depression's taking a toll
These drugs are taking control
I hope they can fill the void in the vacancy of my soul
Thinking a lot
I've been going through something
I feel sick to my stomach
So I drink just to numb it
Thinking a lot
I've been going through something
I feel sick to my stomach
So I drink just to numb it
This is for you