YCK - I Try Not to Let It Get the Best of Me Lyrics

I've been trying to better myself
But it's getting harder every day with no help
Cut those ties look at how we've fallen
Reaching for the pills that's been my solace

No I'm not a hero but I ain't a f*cking villain
I've been trying to get better I've been on the penicillin
But I felt worn down got worked to the bone
You can see it in my face wanna help just don't

Thinking it's best that I just be alone
I don't wanna be a burden think it's best I go
And the moment I'm back, that I really don't know
Made a lie to your face said I'd check on my phone

Open bottles drank every drop
And back then it was better I think a lot
Cause I never doubted I never thought
I just did what I felt every chance I got

Fall just came with that season change
It's like every year I just feel the pain
And we take a look at what we became
I'm just feeling tired and we feel the same

I've been trying to better myself
But it's getting harder every day with no help
Cut those ties look at how we've fallen
Reaching for the pills that's been my solace

Been a few years now I cannot recognize
All the signs that you're giving now I'm feeling real blind
To the things that I cared about now I don't mind
Every time that you hurt shutting both of my eyes

Everything you said let me to take it to heart
But you don't apologize now we're breaking apart
When you gonna learn that your words have weight
Cause I feel shit too can't put that away

Gave a label I don't mumble rap
When I get no chance I don't f*ck with that
I've been tossed to the side about a thousand times
I don't see no stars in a clouded sky

Still it builds and deep down inside
It won't die down soon no it stays alive
And it'll keep going strong it's fuel is hate
And living down everyday it's the cruelest thing

I feel hopeless, walking nightmare
You made a promise you'd be right here
Medicated I feel vagrant
Quitting cold just to make a statement

I've been trying to better myself
But it's getting harder every day with no help
Cut those ties look at how we've fallen
Reaching for the pills that's been my solace