Xzela - Starry Lyrics

I used to be starry eyed
I used to get the butterflies
But then life happened, I can feel my bones snappin'
Every situation I get in is just overlappin'
With memories that I already have and if ass backwards was a course
I'd prolly be teaching the class
And it's starting to feel stagnant
I'm losing compassion
I just want this to pass
But hold on, hold on, hold on girl, you're moving too fast
Now I'm void of all emotion
Or maybe I'm just holding on a little too tight to the notion
That one day, maybe, I'll have somebody to hold
And it's getting old
And I'm just getting colder
Betcha ten bucks that I would get up and leave the bar tonight
I'd hop a flight, drink some bottled wine, fly to the summertime
Summer nights, instead I'm hella fighting with myself
Beating on my mental health, sparring with my head state
Every once in awhile I wish I would cut myself a f*cking break
But hey wait, it ain't too late to save me
I'm recreating all my love for this human vessel
Oh, I just wanna be the best
And I wanna be better
I guess that's probably why I never let up
I'll never let another motherf*cker tell me who I am
I know I'm bound to fall, but right now I'm still standin'
And I'm plannin' to keep my feet planted on this planet
Maybe one of these days they'll understand me
But if not, I know what I got and it's outstanding
Do you see what I see?
Do you see what I see?
I used to be starry eyed
I used to get the butterflies
But then life happened, I can feel my bones snappin'
Every situation I get in is just overlappin'
With the next one, the next one
The next one, the next one
It's no fun, it's no fun
It's no fun, no fun
I used to be starry eyed