My life all I know
My life filled with stone
Telling god to rest my soul
Because in the end we are nothing more than dust
Even in the snow
Keep a smile acting role
Burning wounds they going cold
Jeopardize my soul for lust
Even in the snow
My life filled with gold
Feel my chest got bullet holes
I'll off you next cause it's nothing more for us
Hatred growing bold
The more that I been growing old
My heart on auction being sold
My voices screaming but none I trust
The drowning desire to break free from the shackles that trouble me so deep
My mind is escaping my body I feel nothing at all
I'm an empty vessel patiently waiting for purpose
Battling ego not for love of myself but for judgment of others
I believe I am nothing at all yet everyone else is beneath me
What a hateful world view
I don't want to be this way
Crippling loneliness and a possessive desire for attention
Constantly conflicting my stage of being
Leaving me in a swirling dissociation from reality
I don't care about anything yet I care so much
Nothing scares me yet I'm terrified
Lock me away
Embrace me
I just wish that I was there for you more
I know some days it's gonna be hell and a storm
I know everything is gonna f*cking die
I know everyone I love is gonna die
Yeah I think I met an angel in disguise
I just want to change the world and kill the lies
When I look I see pain your eyes
When you look you see pain in my eyes
Am I deluded I can't fight the urge to stroke my ego
I feel like I'm so obsessed with how much better I am
This talent was a curse and a gift
I will never live a normal life
My heart spoiled with compassion and empathy for all
But it seems my constant state of rage taints this compassion
There's forever a feeling of emptiness
A dark pit in my soul
These ideas are the only things binding me to this meaningless life
My former mind screams behind the bars of my ribs
But this feeling is too great