Xilla Gore-Rel-A - DEAD INSIDE Lyrics

All this shit, man, it's just too much, man
What the f*ck do you expect of me, man
Like, I mean, is this how it goes
I mean, is this what it is
Cause, man, f*ck
See these tears in my eyes
As they stomp on my pride
Man, I'm tired of these motherf*ckers
I wish they all die
Dead inside all my life
Can't you hear my heart cry
I built my own casket
And then they locked me inside
Not filled with the Holy Ghost
I don't sip on no holy water
Got it all on my own
I grew up without a father
No peace in this life of mine
Betrayed by one inside
Stabbed right in the f*cking back
From the ones I called ride or die
Why do I even try
When I'm living my life deprived
You contemplate my next move
I contemplate suicide
F*ck your torches and pitchforks
You better go run and hide
The monster y'all created
Just a modern day Frankenstein
I'm losing my f*cking mind
I'm holding my f*cking breath
I'm clutching to this blunt
Like it's the last one left
Cause I am the bull god
You understand
The illegitimate son of man
And I'm tripping
I'm tripping