Xhaos - Her Lyrics

What are you doing?
I'm just, looking at the world... and writing a new piano piece
Oh yeah, can I hear it?
So many chicks I been through, maybe I'm the problem
Mornings are the hardest, I shoulda called you often
All you needed was some love, man I feel so retarded
It was bad timing; I'm barely getting started
I'm tryina make a name, I'm tryina build a brand
I shoulda cared about you more than I cared about my fans
I wanna be the face they recognize in every town
Lots of lonely kids with dreams and they need me now
So many haters doubt, they try to weed me out
They taking screenshots of everything I'm posting now
And sending it to all the friends in the group chat
I just don't understand a person that could do that
I put 'em all in when I'm stacking my bank, clips
I'm taking Dons to be put in their places
I'm talking work, they not speaking my language
They watching every move I make like a day, vid
I ain't gone lie they really make me feel so insecure
I guess I'd be more confident if I was making more
But I ain't stopping till I'm rocking on some major tours
Yeah I can take a lot of things but I can't take a loss
I watched the movie "Her" when I was on my way to islands
Back in May when you and I were barely getting started
"Her" voice reminded me of yours, it was so surprising
I stumbled on this beat the day you left me broken hearted
It's kinda weird when you think about it in the end
Cause ain't a single thing that happened is coincidence
I got a lot to say so I won't even hook the middle
I tried to think of one but this time couldn't crack the riddle
My self-esteem is at the lowest that it's ever been
Tryina beat this game of life but I can never win
I'm never really truly happy and it's evident
This life we living in is just a load of sufferin'
I pray to God but lately all my prayers sounding vain
Our father, please bless me with that major fame
Cause lately all that I've been feeling is some aches and pains
But i ain't talking physical, I'm talking in the brain
I only listen to my music, not some other noise
I'd like to text her back, but then I hear my mothers voice
And I remember what you did that I could not avoid
Ain't even been a day, she's (redacted)
But who am I to say you (redacted)
I just wanted you to know that it was kinda rude
You looked me dead in the eyes and I was so confused
And for the record I would NEVER do that s- to you
And I'm not sure if I forgive you for that one yet
My life changed, the worlds same, the sun sets
The moon shines, the rain drops, become less
The days pass, it don't matter if I'm upset
I try to drown the sounds of louder mouths with rounds of stouts
Found a Route Around the ounces now I'm out for counts
Lately I've been thinking drinking is cool
It takes my brain away from thinking when I'm thinking of you
Convinced myself that I'm a loser and I'm thinking it's true
And Dom tells me that the only thing you think of is you
But I don't write this song for you, so don't you get it confused
I write it for myself and all my fans that's misunderstood
The ones who never fit in cause the world said they're no good
They be like no more sad songs, I'm like, what should I do?
How I'm s'posed to smile in their face, body to body
When they gone take my pain and laugh about it at the next party
They hardly understand... they hardly understand
Alright calm down, calm down, pull it together
Gotta walk in rain, to get to the better weather
Besides you're really good at this, Chaos don't you remember?
Just write the next line, you know that you're getting better
Look at the fans that you've amassed
And look at the goals that you've surpassed
And look at the people that's looking up to you when everyone else that they knowing is whack
The girls were never the goal remains
The world is ready to know your name
You gone be given the golden chains
And they gone be gone with no remains
You gone be living your best life
You gone be given the best wife
And everything hurting you now forever gone be in the back of the left right (Right)
Cause she's the one that left, right? (Yup)
But now you been blessed with the best rhymes (Ayyee)
And now you been given the best pipes
Looking so crazy, amazing, you're better and better get up into next heights
Pick yourself up homie, you're better than the jerks
It's time to move on, one day you'll be forgetting her
I put my mind, my soul, and all my body in my work
And lost my heart in the process, Lord knows it hurts