Thoughts Video (MV)

See I'm always feeling great
So I never ever cry
Haha hold up
That was just a lie
Sometimes I wish that I could die
I hate living in this lie
I feel like I always have to hide
What's going on inside
Somebody come and help me
Somebody come save me
I don't know what to do
I've lost sight of what is true
And I know that it's in Your book
And all I have to do is look
But what's the point if
I won't believe it
And what's the point if
It all seems hopeless
I lay here in my bed
Tears streaming down my face
Thoughts running through my head
And my heart's in a race
I just want to cry out loud
But I don't dare make a sound
Cause I were found here
Darkness would draw near
I don't know what I'm so scared of
Tell my parents really should have
Opened up and let my heart out but I can't
So instead I curl up tight
Then alone I try to fight
Too weak to do this right
Need someone to be my Light
Is He out there still?
Yes, that I know
Is He with me still?
I'm not so sure
I know that He promised me
He would always be with me
And He'd never ever leave
But that's not what concerns me
What if I'm the one who's left?
What if I'm the one who's deaf?
Cause it seems like I can't hear a thing
Or maybe I'm not listening
If I really love Him
Then why don't I obey Him?
Why do I pick and choose
The commands I will or won't refuse?

All these thoughts in my head
I find it hard
To sort through
I'm not sure anymore
Of what is fake and is true
All these thoughts in my head
Only one
Of them is true
God is here
By my side
And of that I'm sure
All these thoughts in my head
I find it hard
To sort through
I'm not sure anymore
Of what is fake and is true
All these thoughts in my head
Only one
Of them is true
God is here
By my side
And of that I'm sure

Thank God that was a while ago
Thank God that's in the past
Of course I'm not like perfect now
But the change in me will last
And I can't do this on my own
But that is why I'm never alone

All these thoughts in my head
I find it hard
To sort through
I'm not sure anymore
Of what is fake and is true
All these thoughts in my head
Only one
Of them is true
God is here
By my side
And of that I'm sure
All these thoughts in my head
I find it hard
To sort through
I'm not sure anymore
Of what is fake and is true
All these thoughts in my head
Only one
Of them is true
God is here
By my side
And of that I'm sure