Xcla!m - Smile Lyrics

You try to pull me out but I slam shut the door
You wanna give me love but I never admit I'm poor
You tell me I don't know the truth and that I'm so lost
But I close my ears to you I'm here alone no matter what the cost
Yah even though deep down I know what I should do
I never see allow anyone to help me get through
Yah the days get darker the more I say no thanks
And the ones who stay here with me think my heart has gone all blank
Yah I've erased all the feelings away from my face
I push them deep down inside a cavern with no space
Yah the pit down in my soul where all real things go
Is now so full it's bursting. not that you'll ever know
I feel sad and push that down no question
Cause every time I want to show it, my mask comes in crushing
It smashes down all the real stuff deep down inside
It makes it the thing you see always a smile
I put it on so that it looks so real
I try never to show my true tears
But sometimes the fake begins to crumble
And you might catch a glimpse of the pain that is under
I never let it slip about the truth of all my feelings
I'm never gonna let anyone comfort me or come in
Cause the sadness that I've felt has been for a while now
And I've never vented and just keep firm in my smile
Yah of course everyone always has something to hide
And of course some show more than others. that's fine
But the point of this song is not to encourage
It's to make sure you stop doing all of that damage
Yah it's actually causing you to be torn apart
Every time you tighten the mask it rips apart your heart
Yah it's cracks you a bit deeper, every time you push more down
All you need is to do tell someone yah let it out ahh