Xavier Ghost Xavier - Aman to Remain Alive Lyrics

This isn't what I planned for
This isn't what I've been building up every single day of my life

What the f*ck have I been doing with all of my time
I don't even know anymore why I say the things I say inside of light

The light feels like lies built upon lies
And I just want to let go

Let go
Of every part of my mind
As I slowly let go of you
Where could I ever go into
As I slowly fade away

As I wander through
Will I ever want you to answer
What I am inside

This ice will fray away
Wash the ashes of the past
Slowly collapse upon the tongue
Of Which I said I'd never carry anymore

But I've been carrying so very clearly the hidden messes of the sword

What's gone inside
This time I swore
To someone I loved
I swore that I would love you
Forever forever more
Forever forever more
For where are you now?
It is distorted in words they collapse upon my tongue
And the air of my lungs is gone forevermore
Forevermore

Where I am now?
I don't know
I do not know
Where I am

Inside of this home is a part of the past that I swore would be gone