I feel like I am disintegrating
Into this atmosphere
I thought I moved past this
But it's hard when your trauma
Is wrapped around my mind
I can sense the dark shadow
Haunting me
And I wish that it
Would just go home
Within the noise
I feel my heart sink
Into my bones
As I realize
I'm out of place again
I can't hear me
The colors melt away
As my eyelids shut down
And the memories flood away from me
I can't hear me
I dream about Death almost every night
And I wonder if my elders are here
But it wakes me in a hot muggy sweat
And I don't want to feel it anymore
I can sense the dark shadow
Haunting me
And I wish that it
Would just go home
Within the noise
I feel my heart sink
Into my bones
As I realize
I'm out of place again
I can't hear me
The colors melt away
As my eyelids shut down
And the memories flood away from me
I can't hear me