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Life or death is the only option
But the latter has a better profit
Maybe that's a dark mind for the conscience
Maybe that's the best kind of process
So deep in the demons of the past
Intertwined but I know I can last
The brightest light has the darkest shadow cast...
How bout that
How'd I make it this far oh my God
Only person I talk to is all in my thoughts
Insecure so I'm talking a lot
Maybe I expect a lot from my God
Broke down to something I don't know now
Low moods so I keep a low profile
Slowed down cause I'm in my own hole I'll
Keep my soul inbound as I hold it out
Cause I don't know how I can get over trials
When I am colder now but it's a motion now
I've been losing faith I don't trust the world
So I'm losing my way what the f*ck unfurled
Feel like a failure drowning in the deep end
But I'm always told that it's just another season
It feels like foreva karma don't let up
I wish it was better and I wish I knew the reason (Look)
Hard to breathe everything is a scene that's
Hella deep while I'm drowning in the seas of
My depression with no intention to speak up
Maybe karma is hitting me in the seasons
Pain pills in the dresser
Suicide note right next to the meta
Can't really deal with all of this pressure
And I don't have time for a mothaf*ckin lecture
(So I)
Thought of a thousand ways to die
I'd rather end it here and now in my demise
Cause if I'm not loved then why am I alive
I'd rather get out your way than waste your time
Stuck in the middle
Judging the mental
Numb my emotions with the drugs that I'm into
And on top of that I tried to f*ck the pain away
Looking for relief from the pressure day to day so
Please save me from myself
Please save me from this hell
Oh my God I'm a goner if I could recall
All the flaws and the trouble I caused growing up
Haven't walked through them all
But I'm lost in them all
I ain't not looking too far
But my visions distorted
Deepest of deep contemplatin til mornin
Go full force nigga I don't do portions
Racing my thoughts make them bitches run courses
Wanna take my life but a niggas too gorgeous
Born to innovate
Will not take away
Anything I made
I'm a f*cken great
Will not hesitate
Just to make a statement
Mindsets way too dangerous
I don't know if I'll make it till mornin
Wanna take my life but a niggas too gorgeous
You see it really takes a lot just to forgive
If I really want a future then I'll forge it
Feeling down and out and unimportant
Like I'm all alone and just and orphan
Wanna be close but I'm living in fear
Cause all my close friends seem to disappear
And you wanna talk about loyalty?
You probably playing my emotions don't toy with me
Held this in since high school
I prolly held this in since I was five dude
But to laugh and smile is all that I do
When I get home I'd be breaking down in my room
Music was the savior
Every single day I
Be making my beats after school for like 8 hours
So I should be a little proud
If it wan't for that I wouldn't be here now
And I was writing poems every chance I get
Which led to the artist that I am
This wasn't for the money
Or for the honeys
This was for the heart if I recall again
Told myself I wanna find myself
Now I SEE how dumb that sounds
What'm I looking for I'm right here
Why'm I taking the runaround?
Say I don't have time to f*ck around
But it seems like all I do is f*ck around
Maybe God don't love me
Maybe low key I wanna drown
This time around I'll find my path
New perspectives freedom at last
Maybe I should let this pass
Maybe it ain't all about the cash
Please save me from myself
I'm changing who I am now
Oh my God I'm a goner if I could recall
All the flaws and the trouble I caused growing up
Haven't walked through them all
But I'm lost in them all
I ain't not looking too far
But my visions distorted
Deepest of deep contemplatin til mornin
Go full force nigga I don't do portions
Racing my thoughts make them bitches run courses
Wanna take my life but a niggas too gorgeous
Born to innovate
Will not take away
Anything I made
I'm a f*cken great
Will not hesitate
Just to make a statement
Mindsets way too dangerous
I don't know if I'll make it till mornin
Wanna take my life but a niggas too gorgeous