Will Orchard - Savior Lyrics

I opened up my computer
Gave myself a fair warning one more time
I sounded so calm and sure of myself
So I took out that needle and stuck it in my side
I picked up my old guitar
Looking to drain all the poison from my mind
I thought that feeling bad would turn me into some kind of savior So I scribbled out those words and gave it one more try
I looked in the mirror and said
Do you even know me?
The fire inside your head died
Someone got up and walked out to the cold breeze You don't even know him
You just tell him he's all wrong But his hands are on you now
I'm going on a road trip with my dad
Looking to break up all these days gone mad
Where I sit in my body, but I can't stop exploring my mind

So I pinched the thin skin on my hand and gave it one more try
I remember sitting in the front seat, eyes half closed
Squinting at the dashboard, miles of air into my nose
And with each inch down on the gas pedal, feels like I am bursting out of myself I thought that feeling bad would turn me into some kind of savior
But really dwelling in that world only brought me closer to my anger
I feel like a hot stove
Hurled into a frozen lake
I watch it all go by
I know that everything decays
I know it ain't healthy
To calm yourself down
By thinking about the universe
In its massive pointlessness you just drown
Instead I go home Get to know myself And I trust that more Than anything else