Will IV - 17 Lyrics

What am I supposed to do when you're gone
I know I pushed you away, but that was wrong
I never needed your hate, but it's fine
Maybe you'll be kinder today

I spent 23 years in my bed
Now I'm just tryna get you out of my head
The hardest part is knowing you're gonna stay
But it's fine

When I was 17
You told me that I could do anything
Why would you do that to me
When I was 17
It felt like I'd never do anything
Why would you do that to me

Now I've gotta think of something to say
Praying somehow it keeps my demons at bay
You never wanted my opinion anyway
I'll just shut up and find something to play

And I spent 23 years with the dead
Watching them laugh in my face while my heart bled
The hardest part is knowing they're gonna stay
But it's fine

When I was 17
You told me that I could do anything
Why would you do that to me
When I was 17
It felt like I'd never do anything
Why would you do that to me

Could you be the one
That makes me whole
I wish I was done
But you're keeping me safe while I'm still young
Could you be the one
To ease my pain?
I'm looking for release
An uncondemned new lease on life