You know
I been going through
A lot lately
I been tryna reach out to you
But you know what
F*ck it
Sitting here with this bible
Lately i been thinkng
If we die in the end
Whats the point of living
Should i take my life today
Should i stay another day
I been reasoning on the thought
Should I even try to pray
KnowING you up there
Sitting in ya golden throne
Feeling comfy all at home
Laughing and watching me
As i struggle everyday
Day by day i been asking for a sign to
Please show me that i got a purpose
Instead of showing me what hurt is
But all you been
Showing is i ain't really worth it
Now here i am
I'm calling out
Lord cant you hear I'm praying out loud
People always tell me that we all got a purpose
What the point of purpose if I'm always hurting
Oh uh tell my mom I said this since she isn't here for me
Mama do you know everyday I have been fighting
Do you see the pain inside of me starting to ignite
Tired of the fight so I try to write but it don't seem to come out
Day after day
Sadness always seem to creep back around
You say you love but I feel it really isn't true
Now its time for you to feel the pain that you put me trough
Where were you when the times where bad
It makes you sad but makes me mad
Cause that was when I needed you
Skies always looking gray cause I never see blue
And blue means happiness but you didn't love me so that was unfortunate
You must have felt the weight getting heavy on your shoulders
Couldn't do your job as a mother so you quit and put it in a folder
Please show me that i got a purpose
Instead of showing me what hurt is
But all you been
Showing is i ain't really worth it
Now here i am
I'm calling out
Lord cant you hear I'm praying out loud
But I know happiness is something that you gotta find cause it wont find you
Even on the darkest days you can your skies from gray to blue
But suicide not it wouldn't be right
Cause look at all the people that you would have left behind
It's like a world war 3 but you ain't in it
But I'm sick of life can I slit my wrists
No you may not its a
Permanent fix for a little issue
Something you should think about before you go and do
Don't worry though I've been through it to
Cut my wrists and almost overdosed
Still thanking god that I'm here alive
Cause now I love my life
And I love to strive
I really love the feeling of even living a life
And now that I know I got a purpose
I gotta try and help other find what they worth is