Oh no, here comes the time of night
Where this sociological experiment doesn't work for me anymore
I see through your conversation loops
Your psychological tropes and it's all such a f*cking bore
I need to stop letting men treat every inch of my body like a wasteland
My room like a trash can
My arms like an ashtray
My emotions like a sounding board
So you can hear your own greatness echoing back towards you
I am not a stepping stool
On your personal journey of getting your ass off the floor
And for the record, my odyssey is so much better than yours
And more interesting
And more important
And more impressive and more empowering and more adult-like and more Groundbreaking and more significant and more
Badass and more and more and more
And better than yours
And I'm taking naps on subway maps again
Though I always wake up where I needed to go
Least I tell myself so
Least I tell myself so
I think it's my defense mechanism
I keep putting myself to sleep
And the voices start chanting back up again
Retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat
Retreat
Retreat
You think you're winning some kind of game by spreading yourself so thin
Maybe cause someone once told you you're only as good as the ones you let in
But honey, you are not them
And she made me feel like nothing inside my own home
Did you hear me, I said
She made me feel like a stranger in my own bed
But she ain't got no power over me, no
She got no power over me
No she ain't got no power over me
'Cause she don't know she was rolling in the cum I coaxed out of her man
When she slept in my sheets
When she slept in my sheets
No she ain't got no power over me
Why'd you think you scare me
With your shadow puppets on a wall
See I've been to hell, I've seen those streets
Sometimes even thrice a week
And I'm taking naps on subway maps again
Though I always wake up where I needed to go
Least I tell myself so
Least I tell myself so
I think it's my defense mechanism
I keep putting myself to sleep
And the voices start chanting back up again
Retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat, retreat
Retreat
Retreat
You stand on the edge of the precipice
And you begin to feel fear
But I've died a thousand times
And honey, I am still here
I am still here
I am still here
You want dissociative? I'll give you dissociative
You want dissociative? I'll give you dissociative
You only get all of me if you deserve it
You don't deserve it, you don't deserve it
Oh they want dissociative, I gave them dissociative
They want dissociative, I gave them dissociative
You ain't seen nothing yet
Why'd you think you scare me
With your shadow puppets on a wall
See I've been to hell, I've seen those streets
Sometimes even thrice a week
I bet you don't know what that means
Honey, you don't even know what that means