Wild Lyle - Shall I Lyrics

If I should disappear with no clicks on the clock, clicks on the clock, I'm gone
Just think of every song of me being reborn, and I'll never be out of your memory for long
Keep your mind and your focus strong, well tha'ts depending what you focused on
Wake up every day like I'm supposed to mourn, looking at the poster that I'm posted on
Is that me? My goodness, where has the time gone
They can't see the masterpiece that I've been drawn
I don't pay no attention, but I still see him yawning
Try to forget, but it's hard to ignore'em
A starving artist living modest as a martyr, so there's no promising that I'll be starving tomorrow
See, I made up some changes, we all need to change, kid, let's start to rearrange this
Homeless on the corner, showing love to strangers
But still don't pay attention cause they all think he's dangerous
Like, damn, I know I could've made it, just want a cold case with the life he created
And how am I worried about Murph when I'm drinking every day
And it's never enough
But alcoholics on the corner, never giving up
But that could be me and Velardi one case a beast
Matter of fact, one case apiece
See, this tension release, I don't care if you pay attention to me
I know I'm the worst cause I go so deep
I talk to ancestors inside a hearse, begging for somebody to hear me
Yet have no friends, don't want no one near me
So I'm yelling, screaming, shouting my name
Is there anybody out there glad I came
I'm so crazy, mad, insane
Should've been first to try cocaine, but yet never did it
I would be too committed, like crimes in the hood, it would be no good
That lesson is misunderstood, that's why we see drunk drivers every day
While they survive another victim falling as prey
Homeless on the corner, showing other strangers
But still don't pay attention
Cause they all think he's dangerous
Like, damn, I know I could've made it
Just want a cold case with the life he created
And how am I worried about Murph when I'm drinking every day
And there's never enough
But alcoholics on the corner never giving up
And that could be me and Velardi, one case a beast
When you losing your brother, like, that's okay
Move on too quick, try to start a new day, without the pain
How could you write if we all felt the same
What a boring life, but we all seem the same, and that ain't right
All you actors out there, but the cast ain't tight
Maybe cause they don't cast all types
Plus I write what the vast majority won't like
So it seems like I'm going in this never-ending fight
And it never seems like there's an ending in sight
No wonder people run away and want to take flight
Try to escape demons that haunt their life
Feeling suicidal after they lose their wife
But you never get her back, cut your throat with a knife
Want to do harm, just out of spite
And hate for the world won't bring back your girl
Homeless on the corner, showing other strangers, but still don't pay attention
Cause they all think he's dangerous
Like, damn, I know I could've made it, just want a cold case with the life he created
And how am I worried about Murph when I'm drinking every day
And it's never enough
But alcoholics on the corner never giving up
And that could be me and Velardi, one case a beast