Who's Gary? - Without Having a Drink Lyrics

They tell me that I need to stop drinking, I can't
Ok then slow down, well I don't really think that I can
Cause every time I do it's like I'm just sitting crying at night
And I'm like f*ck my life who gives a shit cause I'm dying tonight
I can't go outside without having a drink
I can't know what's life without having a drink
I can't even eat without having a drink
I can't even sleep without having a drink

I'm just drinking all day and night
I hate my life I might as well just go and take this knife
And cut my wrist until it takes my life
Everybody's f*cking stupid I don't take advice
So I'm just gonna dive off of this building til I hit the ground
A grin or frown well it depends on if I live or drown
What is this now, my imagination or a sound
I'm starting to find it hard to tell the difference with it now
Cause I come from a long line of alcoholics
Is this all for me why yes, yes it all is
So leave me alone with my drink and my weed
And let me pretend and just think that I'm free
Just give me the bottle and give me the glass
Hear me and they be like isn't he fast
Actually I don't even need a glass
Give me the bottle Imma drink it fast
Hoping I pass out just not that I wake up
Cause if I wake up that's another day of
Misery that I just don't feel like dealing with
Tell me it's ok but I'm just not feeling it

They tell me that I need to stop drinking, I can't
Ok then slow down, well I don't really think that I can
Cause every time I do it's like I'm just sitting crying at night
And I'm like f*ck my life who gives a shit cause I'm dying tonight
I can't go outside without having a drink
I can't know what's life without having a drink
I can't even eat without having a drink
I can't even sleep without having a drink

I drunk drove my car head first into a truck
Doing 50 around the corner, just my friggin luck
He's stopped at the light minding his own biz
I slide around the corner, whole time I'm like oh shit
And smash, my whole care is f*cking destroyed
But he was in my way, I step out all annoyed
The cops came and gave me a citation to slow down
It's for my own good but f*ck it I don't know now
Cause I just kinda want to motherf*cking die
And hope I don't have to live another f*cking life
My therapist tells me that I need to make some changes
My job, my drinking, and my motherf*cking living arrangements
Don't want to live just wanna f*cking die
Just want to drink and be so f*cking high
Don't know what the f*ck is wrong with me
Just want to live a normal f*cking life
Everything is a dream nothing's real
I am just sitting here swallowing pills
If I text Madelynn one more time
She's gonna hate me and I don't want that and she tells me

They tell me that I need to stop drinking, I can't
Ok then slow down, well I don't really think that I can
Cause every time I do it's like I'm just sitting crying at night
And I'm like f*ck my life who gives a shit cause I'm dying tonight
I can't go outside without having a drink
I can't know what's life without having a drink
I can't even eat without having a drink
I can't even sleep without having a drink

I drink and drink and drink and think until I can't breathe
These pills better kill me because I don't have a plan b
I'm mixing all this shit just hoping that it f*cks me up
People asking what I'm doing, have to tell them nothing much
I don't know why I'm doing this shit
My mind, I don't know why I'm losing this shit
I'm 23, alone, just a loser and it's
Gonna kill me anyway let's just do it, f*ck it
I can't keep a friend for like more than a day or two
Because my mind always makes me believe they're hating you
So I just stay alone until I can't take the pain
I need a gun to put some f*cking holes in my brain
Drinking away all of the pain, aye
Feel like I'm going insane, aye
Trapped in my mind I can't sleep, aye
Hoping I'm finding some peace, aye
Be happy to be in my grave, aye
What happened you isn't the same, aye
I'm tired of living and shit, aye
I'm tired of going insane

They tell me that I need to stop drinking, I can't
Ok then slow down, well I don't really think that I can
Cause every time I do it's like I'm just sitting crying at night
And I'm like f*ck my life who gives a shit cause I'm dying tonight
I can't go outside without having a drink
I can't know what's life without having a drink
I can't even eat without having a drink
I can't even sleep without having a drink