WesydeUnderground - Despair Lyrics

Welcome to my one-sided life
Where every day is dark as night
And I'm never alright
It's been years since I've seen the light
Stuck in this box with only my sight
Getting too tired to fight
But I'm like, "What's the point?"
I was smokin' a joint
I never saw the spray that took my life away
To this day I replay every single memory
Who the f*ck, why the f*ck did they do this to me
I can't believe that I'm dead yet I still feel alive
And I can't f*ckin' move a thing except for one of my eyes
And the maggots and flies, they used to keep me company
Even tho I knew that they were feeding on me
But they had to leave, had to go, I don't know why
But somehow I survived to live a lie
The truth is this is what lies on the other side
When everybody else dies

Alive inside
Please let me die

I never went to sleep or caught a glimpse of the light
Remembering, just like a dream, the loss of my life
And that night replays every day, just like the pain
It never goes away, it's never gonna change
From the porch to the morgue in the blink of a fable
Next thing I knew I was on the embalming table
My clothes were on the floor with a man next to me
And even tho I couldn't see, I could feel what he did to me
Washing me down and stretching me out
Pulling out the needle, sewing together my mouth
And even tho I couldn't shout I could still feel the blade
And as he cut in to my neck I felt the blood run away
Into the cut went two tubes, it was nothin' but cold
Until he started pumping out my stomach thru my navel
And then right back to the needle, he closed up my eyes
And when they rotted away that's when I realized

Alive inside
Why can't I die
Alive inside
Oh, Please let me die

Alive inside

Alive inside
Why can't I die
Alive inside
Oh, Please let me die