Why do I always have to feel the fall? I can't get the rise. I know I stand too tall just to crash down in my mind
I'm lost, and I'm never coming back. I'm too destroyed, lost inside my head
Never coming back now, stuck inside the background. I just wanna be okay, but I know recently I just run away
Cause I can't feel emotions, can't feel love. I've been too hopeless. I know I'm choking on my words
And I'm done with the way that I think. I'm looking too absurd in this life for what I've been trying to lead
I know everybody wanna talk, but nobody really see this place that I really had to be
Darkness in my heart, I know that I start to scream out too loud. No one hears me now, I just wanna be okay
But I've been way too f*cked up. I don't really feel like I can have love. I just wanna try to be able to rise above
But I know I'm too gone. I'm feeling done with what they all say
Everybody wanna talk, but nobody wanna play. I've been working way too hard, falling down way too far
I know when I gotta dream, I gotta shoot for the stars. Even if that means I'm about to crash down way too hard
I might overdose tonight, feeling like I've lost my mind. I wanna try to be alright, but I know now that I hide
Hiding away from a heart, my soul, I know I feel cold. Tell me where I'm meant to go, feeling like I'm low
I just wanna grab a hold of the person that I was meant to be. But I gave in to you and you decided you wanted to leave
And now I'm f*cked up in this scene. Told you I didn't wanna feel love. You said that you would change that
And now I'm feeling too f*cked up. My mind, my heart rearranged inside
Feeling like I'm never really able to find where I'm meant to be in this life. I've been stuck in this darkness, no more light
I just wanna try to be alright