Mind aligned to a meter arhythmic
Pulsating frustration at its stem
I'll waste no time tearing through my
Sense of stability
Gaining pace at a speed still encumbered
Pushing to dissolve my reaction
Words so dispersed at the top of my memory
Trying to climb through this sensory chokehold
It's been twenty long years since the last time that
I remember being able to breathe
Endless instinctual defensive properties
Forcing me to fight
Forcing me to retort
Taking me further than I've ever been before
Never letting go
Impulsive and devoid
Of any motion backwards and of anything besides this
Strangulating sequence of natural intent
Keeping me away from self-conception
Limiting
My own observation
Or so I'd like to think
It's so much more than these
It's so much more than these
Ingrained social reflexes
Weighing in with no sense of rhetoric
On my own grounds and opposed to my mind
I will act with confidence self-given
Against all of my past ingrained social reflexes