When I woke up
I was in a nightmare
Where those around me
Were just ghost they were not there
Faces of the living and faces of the dead
All were just looking down at me
As I suffer
With tears in my eyes
Wake me up for once
I don't prefer the dream
Its traumatic
These words are static
People tire quickly
When your sad understand it
They want comfort
Won't find it in me
So they move on
I see the blind try to lead
Fix your perception
And be happy for me
I wish it was easy
That easy you don't see
That i've been trying
All these years just to be
Happy
But I'm broken indeed
Well break me
Can't you see
That my eyes shut
And I just bleed
Did you hurt me
Intentionally
Does it matter
Well really it seems
Where is the sun
Well really tell me
I fallen low now
It's really hard to breathe
Well just give me one good reason
Why I shouldn't leave
Because its catastrophic
How I process loss is a burden
I've been tryna focus
Treating you unfairly because I'm hurting
I don't wanna show this
Side of me that's lost never certain
When I woke up
I can't see anything
I don't even know
Who I am this is so strange
Why tell me lies
Why slowly cut with the knife
When you can get this over
In an instant I will be fine
It's not as if I haven't
Been wounded before
It's not as if I haven't
Felt loss or the cold
But for some reason
This time it just sticks to my core
And I cannot shake this
It just stays with me forever more
I was asleep
My eyes were closed
I did not foresee
The pain that was in store for me
I was in denial it seems
I was asleep
My eyes were closed
I did not foresee
The pain that was in store for me
I was in denial it seems
The truth is I can't blame you for the break
Accountability really hard to take
It seems the truth is hurt people hurt people
Even if you have a heart like the brave
So take time I will take all I need
To be the man I see in the mirror
Looking back
I never wanted to say
Anything that's hurtful to the heart
The interior
Why I shouldn't leave
Because its catastrophic
How I process loss is a burden
I've been losing focus
Treating you unfairly because I'm hurting
I don't wanna show this
Side of me that's lost never certain
Why I shouldn't leave
Because its catastrophic
How I process loss is a burden
I've been tryna focus
Treating you unfairly because I'm hurting
I don't wanna show this
Side of me that's lost
Never certain