VIC - Blessings or Curse Lyrics

Yeah, can I have it higher in my head? Yeah, nice
The old school flow killer, tryna be a little more Miller
I put a little focus on my liver, I've been drinking on these late nights
I pack my bag, we bout to take flights
My girl been worried bout these break lights, said we never had none
Pity, I wish I woulda had some
She stroke my head and called me handsome
Wish it could be fixed with a stroke
The pen was all I had when I was broke
The money had me hanging on a bloke
Like te tests
I guess success was there to test me
I'm not the smartest, but studied enough to pass
They used to call it torture, but now I see it was practice
I rock the sweats on the court like the coolest kid in the class
Like, yo, niggas are asking why my jeans sag
Spreading this money, couple hidden in my bean bag
Saving for the worst
The middle kid but looking like the first
Saying, could it be a blessing or a curse
Like, yeah, a blessing or a curse
Could it be a blessing or a curse
Yeah, a blessing or a curse
Could it be a blessing or a curse
Like, yeah, a blessing or a curse
Could it be a blessing or a curse
Yeah, a blessing or a curse
Said, yeah
It's six figures on a deal, age 22
I left the room to see there's sharks in the bigger sea
Picture a younger thinking life is good to cleaner hearts
Who's brother's brother sold the dope, but it was never
Yo
Maybe if I say I sold these raps, I spat it to a dilla
Who got the better deal
Cause then I was a silly uh silly kid
Money for the dates, money for the kicks
Poverty taught me that there's nothing money couldn't fix
Who am I kidding
If it doesn't last, it's just a loan
Like how they told you it was meant to be, but you're alone
Cause when you're young, you take the promises as what you keep
But they're just things you should avoid the second that you're grown
Maybe I grew up and the vision's now clear
Focus on the prayer
Lessons from my olders said I should've stayed a player
But the hunger's in my nature
I got me one ten thats in my bed
But I've been dreaming about another Zendaya
What's the point if you're never content
I got me six at 22, but now I've clocked it
I've been dreaming of 10
This brother got a 10, but did it by eight
It's got me thinking I should make it quick
Cause if I don't, I'll never be great
But what's the point
They said it's all about the journey
I used to want to quick, but now it's peak
I got it early
Six figure deal, but if I'm not equipped I'm in a loss
I gotta find myself before my sanity is lost
Like, got in this yard
Mommy, I'm in the sky
Song's doing okay
Plane's passing me by
The girl's come and they go
My friend's telling me, yo
I used to say you would make it
Maybe I'll come to a show
So now the pressure is high
Hype's started to fade
Nobody told me how it tends to die whenever it's paid
But art is what I must keep
So now I struggle to sleep
I need to keep it, yeah
But yo, the price I'm paying is steep
It's like
Struggle to sleep
I need to
It's like
I need to
It's like