Via Lena - Selfish Lyrics

I'm seeing clearer
Was ranting 'bout a mirror
But then I stepped away
I don't need to see my face
Just to know who I am
I always put so much of
My heart into another
But then you let me go
And I found the control
Over who I am
Now think of all the times
You'll never see me again
Thank you for the lies
I'm no longer wondering
What I could have been
I was busy loving you
When I should have been loving me (ay)
I'm thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout them
Thinkin' 'bout how I'm thinkin' 'bout him
'Cause I don't even try
And I'm running on a high
Now I'm selfish
And I don't even mind 'cause it's helping
I was so hurt, look how I heal
Faking a fantasy, I was too real
I'm better on my own
This whole time I should have known
Now I'm selfish
And I see why loving me was overwhelming
First it's me
Luckily I know what I want
Then it's them, I don't know
How to explain this one
But now it's him, now it's him
I see muscles and tattoos
And I'm getting so confused
Help me
Might have been lost
Never got found
I just got better at walking around
I'll never be alone
These voices in my head
Backing me through the unknown
I'm in my zone
Now think of all the times
You'll never see me again
Thank you for the lies
I'm no longer wondering
What I could have been
I was busy loving you
When I should have been loving me (ay)
I'm thinkin' 'bout me
Thinkin' 'bout them
Thinkin' 'bout how I'm thinkin' 'bout him
'Cause I don't even try
And I'm running on a high
Now I'm selfish
And I don't even mind 'cause it's helping
I was so hurt, look how I heal
Faking a fantasy, I was too real
I'm better on my own
This whole time I should have known
Now I'm selfish
And I see why loving me was overwhelming