Varsity Dropout - Longing Lyrics

My old friends
Old House
Really missing them now
Old clothes
Old shoes
But they feeling new now
I guess I'm changing
The past I'm craving
I got new fears
New dreams
I've been reflecting
Life's too short could end in a second
That terrifies me
I'm still searching for

I've been longing for something that I lost long ago
Somewhere along the line I think I lost control
Been doing a lot of searching inside of my soul
Down that rabbit hole I go

Crash into the sheets
Where my fears they sleep
Crash into the sheets
Where I slowly sink

Used to be young
Used to have fun
Used to go out
Used to be dumb
Used to drink until I was numb
I'm still numb but I don't drink anymore

Heart is beating too fast
Started drinking decaf
Think I need to shower less
Start taking more baths
I just need to relax before I crash

I'm so afraid
Of my dying day
Memories they keep me awake
I've got a feeling I just can't shake
I'm on the verge of a breakdown
This silence is too loud

I've been longing for something that I lost long ago
Somewhere along the line I think I lost control
Been doing a lot of searching inside of my soul
Down that rabbit hole I go

Crash into the sheets
Where my fears they sleep
Crash into the sheets
Where I slowly sink