Underthrow - Toil Lyrics

Has this gone too far?
Reflect who we really are
Want me to be fine
Don't see what's wrong inside
Stack up years of hate
Hope and fate
Will dissipate
Refuse to associate
With me or anything I had to say

(I tell myself)
Rebuild when the pieces are crumbled
Jumbled together you wish you were someone
You look to the future and see no more comfort
The waves you swam across now pull you under
Numb to the pain that's supposed to break
In the wake of it all I give what I take
Feeling the shame staring through window panes
Alone as I hurt into the dark again

There's no one to blame but myself
I put this into fruition trapped in hell
Never asked to be this way I need help
I've come to terms as I sit in this mental cell

I know you
Want me to try
But I can't
See with these eyes

(Just know)
I'm trying the hardest I can
Sand buries life at the palm of my hands
Dig my way out according to plan
Knees buckle its so hard to f*cking stand

Know I tried
When I wave goodbye
Goodbye