Umbra - Void Lyrics

I can no longer feel
Consumed by emptiness
Want more from life
From the outside looking in
Hate every minute I waste
Every chance, missed, thrown away
Hate how I can't
A hollow shell
Living in hell
Looking for an escape
And watch it fade away

I was always so damn pessimistic
Closed off from every person that I met
But I lived empty feeling sick
Not known to the extent
I lived with hate inside my soul
Seeing the atrocities in humanity
To live a life as it were
Made an empty, soulless me
To one day, not live with nothing
And not carry the weight and burden
But always falling, and suffocating
F*cked by the life I've been given
But still not there
Still a stranger
On the outside
Still looking in
I live everyday
Filled with regret
Drowning away
I feel dead
I think of what I should have done
Not what I should do
Something that can't be undone
I have nothing to loose
I need to find a way
To climb out of here
What can I do or say
And break down the fear

Nothing is clear
Looking for answers even if they're wrong
Afraid of what I see
Not knowing what's going on
Truth hurts, blind myself with hate
Desires, ruins, and lies
All I want is clarity of fate
Cast upon my eyes
When there's nothing
You live for nothing
And all you have is nothing
Life becomes nothing
Great satisfaction when it's nothing at all
Blindly living through tunnel vision
Scared that life will fall
When will life be done?
All I want, so far away
And it never reaches me
Emptiness, what I now call home
Can't see a reason to go on

The only desire too escape
Only wanting one simple thing
Want it to come and I can't wait
To not be the me that stings
All hope must be ripped away
All wishes illusion
Darkness a constant for days
Never to see the Sun
When light is seen, and within grasp
The darkness pulls you back
I am nothing inside, void of life
Yet close enough to not wish to die
Feel as though the end is near
To maybe escape the void
Bus still I continue with fear
Though not all good has died

There is no reason to life
Just pain and misery
Am I ready to die?
Because life has no meaning
There is nothing for me
A shallow shell with nothing inside
A cold existence faulty
All the joy must die
Nothing good can happen to me
I always must face the darkest side
And will there be nothing to break me free?
Or will I be here until I die?