A Little Trauma Can Be Illuminating, And I'm Shining Like The Sun Video (MV)

(You did good, $lick)

(Wetto, wetto)

Lately I been feelin' like I don't know who the f*ck I am (don't know who I am)
Tryna figure out where the stage ends and I begin (where do I begin?)
'Til the bitter end, I proceed with a hollow heart
Cut my wounds and call it art, watch me as I come apart
Yeah, pull up Cullinan they wondering which sport I play (who is that?)
I say what I want and what you can't afford to say (no-no-no-north)
Unless I'm hollering "Grey" ain't much else I gotta say (Grey, Grey, Grey)
I made the gang and I made the way, and I made the wave and it's here to stay
Yeah, fakin' a smile while I'm flexin' (I can't go)
Alarm going off for my antidepressant (I can't go)
My girl is up early and bitchin' and stressin' (I can't go)
About how I'm here but I'm lackin' in presence (I can't go)
I tell her, "I love you," but it's lackin' essence (I can't go)
And now I remember just who I am
But give me a pill this one for the win
I'm gone again
Gone

My type of vacation is isolation
I wanna be left alone, gonna see how long I hold
Until I end up fighting off temptations of self-annihilation (Self-annihilation)
I'm holdin' myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage
I can't f*ckin' stop it now, it's all coming out (it's all coming out)
A verbal kind of vomit, I wish I could gut it out (gut it out)
Take away my stomach, f*cking rip it all apart
A hollow cage of calcium that used to hold my heart
I know I'm meant to be alone
(Holding myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage)
I can feel it in my bones
And in my soul
(Holding myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage)