As of late
I admit
It's getting easier to distinguish my soul from my very ego
But even though I know i'm growing every single day
I still commit
So many huge mistakes
During my worst days
I hate being human
During my worst days
I can't always let the bursting flow
Of my own overwhelming emotions go with ease
The well but what if you fail question
Is deeply nailed within me
And it continuously follows me around in whichever the direction i go
My insecurities swoop while my comparative judgement loops
And my feelings of unproductivity and inadequacy regroup
Thus unveiling a frail kid, that seeks some acceptance for who he really is
The hate, the envy, the greed and the jealousy
That i feel within me, on a daily basis
Overwhelm me, in the instance i give in to my madness
Whenever my fear of failure leurs me
I'm in a hurry to plan and plot everything in advance
As to leave nothing for chance
In the rush to perfectly paint my self portrait
I tend to go astray afraid that there's not enough time
To master the art behind the stroke of a paintbrush