Messy Video (MV)

Had nice things but I broke em all
Now I'm screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy
And how the hell did I get so messy
Tunnel vision yeah I shut you out
Yeah I'm sorry that I let you down
When did it get so heavy
And how the hell did I get so messy

The sun is up but i just don't wanna face it
I found my phone but I lost my motivation
Took all my big dreams and threw em in the basement

20 something yeah i'm running out of options
Running from these demons in my old doc martens
Mixing all my problems up with grenadine

I try
But i just can't get it right

Had nice things but i broke em all
Now i'm screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy
And how the hell did I get so messy
Tunnel vision yeah I shut you out
Yeah i'm sorry that I let you down
When did it get so heavy
And how the hell did I get so messy

I keep my medication underneath my pillow
Anxiety hangin over my head just like a halo
I'm too afraid to see the world so I just lay low

I lay awake and try to tell myself a story
But even all my fantasies are pretty f*cking boring
That's why I fill my cup and I feel it in the morning

I try
But I just can't get it right

Had nice things but i broke em all
Now i'm screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy
And how the hell did I get so messy
Tunnel vision yeah I shut you out
Yeah i'm sorry that I let you down
When did it get so heavy
And how the hell did I get so messy

I know it's been a bad year
I'm sorry I can change
Change for anyone
And I don't wanna stay here
I'm sorry I can't change
Change for anyone

I know it's been a bad year
I'm sorry I can change
Change for anyone
And I don't wanna stay here
I'm sorry I can't change
Change for anyone