Got my hands in the air
Got your hands on my chest
Am I dead, am I not
Are my friends all next
On the streets in the night
Go to sleep in the light
Only when I die, I'm alive
Only when I die, I'm alive
Have a xan in the back
Got a mag for the mac
All my shots they go hard like a 12 In a pack
Yeah I ran now I'm back
All these drugs dialled me back
Said I'd never make it big
Now just look at where I'm at
You wake up
Questioning bout who made us
Through the pain, you stayed tough
You hate lust
You crave love
You put on your makeup
Your face is all caked up
I know that the days tough
And smiling is dangerous
I am my biggest own enemy
When I rap, I am a different entity
Was 9 when he entered me
Possessed, don't even need a remedy
In fact
Better to have a true enemy than a fake friend
Can he make ends meet
No he ain't friendly
Personality usually envy
My tears were here to stay
I would hide away
Even cry for days
World is my buffet
So I would just, roll up
To make me numb my brain
Take my f*cking pain
Make me cum again
Bitches, yeah they get no love
Back when I was younger I would say
You the f*cking man
I'm gon live until I plan
Now I'm chasing death like it's a game
He don't wanna play
He says that I'm insane
I'm struggling with loving myself
Put love in my health
I'm feeling so low
Got my hands in the air
Got your hands on my chest
Am I dead, am I not
Are my friends all next
On the streets in the night
Go to sleep in the light
Only when I die, I'm alive
Only when I die, I'm alive
Gotta keep the fight
Beneath those eyes
There's a creature I
Need to reach through my
Deeper side
He resides
In my fickle mind
Death ain't nothing new to me
Amusingly wrote my own eulogy
Exclusively for people
Dreaming ever so lucidly
Truthfully hit puberty
Still living so youthfully